It's been awhile.

I forget i have this thing.

You know what i miss? I miss my friends. I used to be so social, what happened to me?
I hate this. I hate life at the moment. Im sure this is true to every other current year 12 student. But i just cant stand things the way they are now. I just want it all to end.

In the last few months not much has happened. School has been shit as usual. Went to my boyfriends house tonight. We've been fighting alot recently. Another friend has been talking things over with me, which is good. It helps to have a second opinion. I find our relationship is falling apart at the foundation. I love him but it hurts to love him. But without him it hurts all the same.

I should sleep. Work tomorrow.

a new blog.
a new year.
a fresh start.

this is a tad bit later in the year then i had planned, but its ok. better late then never.

so my year so far;
my new year started off with a bang and an extremly intoxicated best friend. it happens.
i spent the first 2 weeks of my new relationship in another country.
i found out my father is engaged - has been for over a year and didnt tell me.
ive returned to school only to decide i no longer want a UAI, and chose to drop legal studies and pick up automotive mechanics at TAFE.
ive stopped dancing.
ive made a new close friend.
and i've only gotten drunk once.

yay for me?
i dont think so.

life has been as tragic as a shakespear play recently. its almost unbearable. in between my boyfriends friends hating me and losing my best friend to her boyfriend (she will say the same of me im sure as it is true, but she was lost first), i have managed to find just the right balance of not attending school and recieving an N award and having my mother dearest screaming the roof down because im a selfish bitch.
it happens however.
i really shouldnt be complaining. but i need to. if i dont i think i might explode. gosh im such a whinger.

today is easter saturday. and all i have to look forward to is hours upon hours of church, the 40 minute walk to church, sleeping over at my best friends house and a bright and early start at work tomorrow. 5 am to be exact. however i should probably end my first entry here. ive left my boyfriend waiting on msn as im mad at him. he is probably wondering why. so im off to go explain myself. man im pathetic.